Can you really ever change yourself?

I've always been the same.

plain.

small.

Fat.

Short Bitten nails.

Nothing special at all.

But I decided last year, to make a change, to eat healthier, stop biting my nails, look after my appearence alot more. Put my Appearence first before anything, Health. Friendship. Family.

Maybe this was a mistake.

Dropping 5 sizes in 6 months and growing my nails long, in just over a week Iam almost back to how I was.

I feel beyond ugly.

So pig ugly I don't deserve to even be here.

I just want to lock myself away.

Maybe I was born to be, and always will be ugly.