so...

I have a name tag...

And a Uniform...

and even a Debenhams fleece!!

EEK!!!!

M&S interview Aswell on Wednesday!

I've been wished luck close on 30 times, but does being wished luck, does that achieve anything. Does someone saying 'Good Luck' Suddenly make greek gods grant all your wishes??

-Lily Hepburn

Blogging from an Apple Mac is pretty frustrating

But my boyfriend is in the bathroom and i PROMISED I would blog at least once a week. Even though it took me 15 minutes to type my passwprd in!

So this week has been pretty eventful, i got training in 'Debenhams' And also a job interview for "Marks & Spencers", Me and Chris also had our first fight which was pretty upsetting. But things are all better now!

Unfortunately I have been depressed a little more this week and sadly HAVE fallen back into the BP Pattern which i tried so hard to avoid. But whoever said Recovery was easy? If all journey's were easy would we ever feel happy that we'd achieved them??

-Lily Hepburn

Paranoia is a bitch!

I didn't lie to you. I am happier. But I've done what people do alot, and I've relied on others, and other things to make me happy. rather than just relying on myself.

I've relied on someone I've fallen in love with to do it for me, and even though I can rely on him, I can't rely on myself to trust him.

I'm happy but when he;s away from me, or he doesn't reply to a text or he mentions another girl, I know he's going to leave me and won't love me.

I HATE paranoia. It Irritates me.

-Lily Hepburn

Life Changing

It's amazing how something so trivial can change your life completly.

Since I've been Dating Mr C I've piled on almost a stone in weight!

Yes it's upsetting me, but I couldn;t care., Having On/Off Bullimia Since I was 7 I've always gone back to it when I'm down. I'm much much more better in myself now.

I know it's unhealthy and very un ME, to rely on a man to make me happy and to cure my ED, But It's happened. It's happened, so i'm going to enjoy it as it lasts.

I've neglected my blog for a while now, But I promise to blog at LEAST once a week.

I just don;t wish to fall inlove the habbit of relying on my Blogger to vent my feelings noiw that I have found a way to make them much much better.

-Lily Hepburn

Hershey's, Kisses & mini's

The past 3 weeks, my life has been turned upside down for the best. I am finally happy. I feel accepted and wanted. I am happy.

My life these past 3 weeks have seemed to be about chocolate and rides in his mini.

I'd be lying if I said I havn't found a new trust in people. He has changed me and I am happy.

It sounds stupid so Quickly, but I am happy.

I havn't been blogging since I've been 'happy' MAybe that's a good thing.

I'm loving my life.

I'm having bad days, but don't we all.

But Now my days are only 20% bad, rather than 99%.

Thank you <3

-Lily Hepburn