the things you Can do when a poster says 'STRICTLY no photography'.

Sneaking a picture when the show had finnished! guess where we are!!

i'm Scared.

I'm scared you won't think I'm beautiful anymore.

Going back there

That feelings, where you ccan tell something is about to happen?

When two people who don;t get on turn up to the same party and everyone waits?

That's how I feel now.

I know it's about to happen.

Please Please Please don;t let it get me.

I can't cope if it got me again.

I can't go back there.

Please please help me.

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Finaly!

I can log in!

I'm thinking of cutting down on blogging now, I seem so miserable because all I ever to is complain about everything!

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The 4 year old me.

If my 4 year old self looked at me now, she'd shit and run. This is far from what i wanted my life to be when i got older.

The 4 year old me wanted to go to University and be a teacher.

The 4 year old me wanted to be perfecct and always nice to people.

the 4 year old me didn't expect half the shit that's happened to me, to happen.

The 19 year old me didn't get the grades she intended and couldn't ever be a teacher.

The 19 year old me has learned always being nice to people means letting people walk all over you.

And the 19 year old me is looking at myself now and wondering what the hell is happening.

Lily

McFly

Well tonight I went to watch a band from my 'teenie' years.

I felt about 14 again, and I was thinking how if i met them tonight, I'd be quite suprised at it.

But however years ago the thought of even being in the same room as them made me feel as if i was about to faint.

I wonder what makes people think so highly of people and as if there life in complete if they dont turn out to be like them, and what makes me realise 'they are just normal people who sing for a living'?

Lily

who do you see your sself marrying

Brent Wilson :P haha!

Ask me anything, I WILL answer no matter what

Happiness

Happiness isn't about getting what you want, it's about acccepting what your given, no one will ever love you if you can't love yourself.

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People try so hard to be perfect, and we end up failing in being oursevles. always be yourself never someone else, People will love you for being yourself, but then again, they may never love you, but at least you can always stay true to yourself.

72 hours.

In less than 72 hours, I'll be 19, and I am quite terrified. I belive that being 19 is the REAL age you become an adult.

And all I can do is think about the fact, I am now an adult, and don't have a clue about life. I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life, I don't have the faintest idea or guidline. I find it so hard to meet people and get people to like me that I know I won't make friends or meet people that will change my life anymore.

My friends from school and people younger than me, have children, some are even married, or at least have jobs and are going to university.

I'm stuck and can't find my way out of it anymore.

The thought that my future will be so lonely is completly terrifying me.

And all I can do is shake.

...

If anyone chooses to talk about you and your life behind your back, it obviously means they find you more interesting than they find themselves. As Oscar Wilde said, There's only one thing worse than being talked about and that is NOT being talked about.

People in this world.

I have no idea how such a sick sick mind can be given.

How you can take someone's life away for having a different choice from you.

Arguing, as humans, we all do it.

But to kill someone?
to take someone's child off them.

Your worse than sick.

Infact words can't describe how much of a disgusting person you really are.

Long time no blog!

Recently I havn't wrote as many blogs as I Previously did. I used to love ranting and raving, but when you have people stalking your profiles and blogs to gain information in you then It gets a little scary, as these people, who once claimed they were my friends have now completly fucked me over. But I'm not going to let it get me down!
I have a Trade Test exam to get onto my level 3 in my hairdressing, however as Amber ususaly does, she finds a way to fuck it all up! But Instead I have an interveiw with my barbering tutor to enroll on my L3 barbering course, so I suppose there is always a silver line in the grey clouds!
So I am attempting to get my life back on track after this say disasterous year I've had, and I'm now begining to spend more time out and about with friends as opposed to sitting in my room crying and moping about my life!
I suppose I am pretty lucky and feel blssed lately, to live a rather healthy and stable life and be able to see and hear beautiful noises that are around and see beautiful things that the world is made of.
I'm counting how long It'll take befor I;m back to my miserable self,
I''m hoping it's a while away...
I love this feeling

Does Money Bring Happiness?

I don't belive money brings happiness in itself, I belive money offers financial security and that's it. But I belive the Security makes it easier to be happy. So No I don't believe the money makes you happier... but the security it brings does!

Well Well Well

Do you really get your jollies from slagging me off publicly? Darling, it's me I LOVE the attention, so carry on doing what your doing, your actualy making me feel quite special :D! I Love you for it!!

Anyway, I'm sick of being fucked around by everybody, so new changes are coming within me. Anyone messes me about, I don't care how many tiems your relatives die, or what mood your in, you will NOT be given a second chance!

Sorry if that sounds so hard..... But...

Ach theres no but about it,

Im just sick of people

Peace fucking out :D:D:D:D:D:D:D!!!!!

Forgiving

If somebody hurts you, never spitefully hurt them to 'get one over'. Because you never ever know when you will accidently hurt them and you'll need there forgivness. Forgive them and they'll forgive you.

moorfields station!! Sorry I geged..... you .... mad woman XD toilets or what? <3 x

Yep, the toilets..... LMAOOO!

Ask me anything, I WILL answer no matter what

1. I hate The Way You always Say probabaly instead of'yes' it confuses me.
2. I Hate the way you can never afford to come out with me.
3. I Hate the way You can sometimes offend me and not mean to,
4. I hate The way you changed a few months ago.
5. I hate the way soemtimes you don't notice my hair.
6. I Hate The Way you Never answer Your phone
7. And I hate the way how your always sad sometimes, because i can't make you happier

7 things I love about you1.
I Love the way you always say Probabaly instead of yes.. it excits me and makes em wonder whast going to happen.
2. I Love the way when you cant afford to come out, we always stay in together
3. I love the way you are always so apoligetic when you offend me slightly.
4. I Love The way I made you realsie you chasnged and you came back to me fighting for me.
5. I Love the way you dont notice my hair being horrible some days.
6. I Love the way when im down you hug me and when your down you let me hug you.
7. I Love How Kind You Can be.

Also.

I love the way your eyes change colour.
I love how dark your hair is.
I lvoe through what we;ve been through i can still trust you.
I love the way your the only person who can understand me.
I love the way you can annoy me alot but i'd still do anything for you.
I Love the way i can tell you to die and you know Im Only joking.
I love how happy you make me feel.I love how you try to kiss me in public and I say no.I
Love how no one knows about us.
I love how i can be hypocritcal and you still won't judge me for it.
I lvoe how my hair, make up and clothes can be horrible and you can still call me beautiful.
I love the way I can fart infront of you and not care.
I love how i know you'll always be there for me.
I love how i can tell you I don't love you and you still know i Do.
I love how we can fight, but still talk the next day.
I love How you Saved Me From nearly Dying.
I love how you made me feel beauitful and worth while again.
I Quite Frankly love everything about you And everything i dislike about id replaced by at least 1000 good things about you.I Love You

..say they want to die happy?
wouldnt it be easier to die sad?
would u really want to die happy?
because then happiness ends.
but then if you die sad then sadness ends.