I can taste blod in mouth.

I had to turn down yet another 'dinner' with Example again today. I said to them I'd be ready by 5 but it would have been too late. It's a pretty good job too, didn;t get out of my bed until 4:45 and that was me walking around dizzily and pretending I was Ok to go home!
Still feeling dizzy now, my throat is sore, my eye is KILLING me and I;m having the worse Palpitations. I'd advicce you to get on my formspring, and ask any questions, as my honesty is well above board!
I really shouldn't be tasting blood in my mouth though, Thank you very much To the Beautiful Beth for coming to Visit me, I love her so much.
so yes, I am in pain.
Love your friendly cyclopse, Lily.

My new fear.

Today, I developed a fear of these things. Having one stare at you, is quite unerving, and having almost stepped on one, and it 'looking at you' is sinister....

Haloween

We spend our lives hearing "Don't take sweet's from strangers" Yet children are encouraged on Haloween to Knock and ask for them!

TBh it's pretty rude, just knocking and asking strangers for things!

Yes I am not a fan of Haloween...

Unhappy Birthday

I've come to wish you an unhappy birthday
'Cause you're evil
And you lie
And if you should die
I may feel slightly sad
But I won't cry

Example

Got a phone call from ‘Live and Lost’ today, asking me could I give Example a lift from North Wales To Liverpool.
my Eye surgery is tommorow.
I’m beyond gutted.
this isn’t fair :(

I did it again.

I let you down. as usual. as always. Why do you even love me? I'm just a constant let down to you.

Oxford & Cambridge or Soggy Biscuits? ;)

Oh My ;)

Ask me anything, I WILL answer no matter what

the things you Can do when a poster says 'STRICTLY no photography'.

Sneaking a picture when the show had finnished! guess where we are!!

i'm Scared.

I'm scared you won't think I'm beautiful anymore.

Going back there

That feelings, where you ccan tell something is about to happen?

When two people who don;t get on turn up to the same party and everyone waits?

That's how I feel now.

I know it's about to happen.

Please Please Please don;t let it get me.

I can't cope if it got me again.

I can't go back there.

Please please help me.

formspring.me

Ask me anything, I WILL answer no matter what http://formspring.me/LilyHepburn

Finaly!

I can log in!

I'm thinking of cutting down on blogging now, I seem so miserable because all I ever to is complain about everything!

thelilyhepburn.tumblr.com

and

twitter.com/lilyhepburn

The 4 year old me.

If my 4 year old self looked at me now, she'd shit and run. This is far from what i wanted my life to be when i got older.

The 4 year old me wanted to go to University and be a teacher.

The 4 year old me wanted to be perfecct and always nice to people.

the 4 year old me didn't expect half the shit that's happened to me, to happen.

The 19 year old me didn't get the grades she intended and couldn't ever be a teacher.

The 19 year old me has learned always being nice to people means letting people walk all over you.

And the 19 year old me is looking at myself now and wondering what the hell is happening.

Lily

McFly

Well tonight I went to watch a band from my 'teenie' years.

I felt about 14 again, and I was thinking how if i met them tonight, I'd be quite suprised at it.

But however years ago the thought of even being in the same room as them made me feel as if i was about to faint.

I wonder what makes people think so highly of people and as if there life in complete if they dont turn out to be like them, and what makes me realise 'they are just normal people who sing for a living'?

Lily

who do you see your sself marrying

Brent Wilson :P haha!

Ask me anything, I WILL answer no matter what

Happiness

Happiness isn't about getting what you want, it's about acccepting what your given, no one will ever love you if you can't love yourself.

untitled

People try so hard to be perfect, and we end up failing in being oursevles. always be yourself never someone else, People will love you for being yourself, but then again, they may never love you, but at least you can always stay true to yourself.

72 hours.

In less than 72 hours, I'll be 19, and I am quite terrified. I belive that being 19 is the REAL age you become an adult.

And all I can do is think about the fact, I am now an adult, and don't have a clue about life. I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life, I don't have the faintest idea or guidline. I find it so hard to meet people and get people to like me that I know I won't make friends or meet people that will change my life anymore.

My friends from school and people younger than me, have children, some are even married, or at least have jobs and are going to university.

I'm stuck and can't find my way out of it anymore.

The thought that my future will be so lonely is completly terrifying me.

And all I can do is shake.

...

If anyone chooses to talk about you and your life behind your back, it obviously means they find you more interesting than they find themselves. As Oscar Wilde said, There's only one thing worse than being talked about and that is NOT being talked about.

People in this world.

I have no idea how such a sick sick mind can be given.

How you can take someone's life away for having a different choice from you.

Arguing, as humans, we all do it.

But to kill someone?
to take someone's child off them.

Your worse than sick.

Infact words can't describe how much of a disgusting person you really are.