I'm not going to lie.

I'm not going to lie and say I'm happy.

I'm not going to lie and say I don;t think about it every moment of every day.

I'm not going to lie and say I don't wonder why I never seem to be okay,

I'm not going to lie and say I have control.

I'm not going to lie and say I regret doing it.

I'm not going to lie and say I'll never do it again.

I'm not going to lie and say I am beautiful.

I'm not going to lie and say It made me feel awful.

I'm not going to lie and say I'm Okay.

I AM going to lie and say I KNOW I can get through it.

Because I really don't know anymore.