Ruth & Eamon Get off my TV!

They Drive me mental!

Happy Valentines day all.

Sorry I have always been promising you that I will blog more, but I never ever do! but I have figured a way to blog from my phone that I will try later.

Someone asked me the other day what this subject, Sadness and Depression, was really like. I couldn't explain it. I imagine you can only know how it feels when you have been you have been to the bottom of the lowest you could possibly be.

I can only describe it as a demon that takes over you and controls you and destroys you, taking every single part of you away from your body and leaving you empty.

He feels like a person, but he isn't, even though he is much stronger than any man you could possibly know. No, he is a product which consists of every bad,insecure and Vulnerable part of you rolled into one.

Last night, and today I have had urges. Urges that I haven't had for a while. I feel like he is grabbing hold of me, but I can fight this time, I'm stronger than I was before. I can fight this.

-Lily Hepburn

#why do people only give a shit when it's about them? They don't care if I'm down, or how I feel.

your only ever bothered incase i ruin your imagine. If I'm not perfect, smiley and happy. I'm not good enough.

-Lily Hepburn

Depression is a buzzkill

More so When you were pretty much behaving like a rocket the previous night.

No, i hate this.

I feel as if i have no breath. Everyone around me is moving and I'm still.

I want this to go.

I hate it, or at least stay, please stop zig zagging out of control.

I can't handle this.

-Lily Hepburn

Long time no blog.

Hello Readers!

So very very sorry for the lack of blogs.

So many reasons why. Possibly the main reason fo this is my lack of laptop and computer. It upset's because i love writing my feeling down and expressing myself through writing.

Also, one of the reason;s I have stopped blogging is my life. I came to realise that my blog was used for me to express my sad feelings an emotions.

I'm recovering; Well trying, and it takes alot of work and keepig busy. I'm s very grateful for my best friend and boyfriend for helping me.

I'VE also had a job... but now I don't... so no excuses for my lack of writing soon.

When I return from NEW YORK I'll do my very best to blog as much as possible.

So I'm not off to Take Diazapan and knock myself right the way out for the flight tommorow.,

I have a terrible feeling that I might die on this trip.


I love my Boyfriend
I love my Best Friend
I love my Family
I love my Cat & Dog
I love my life.

-Lily Hepburn